Wednesday, July 24, 2013

July 24: Daily Recap

The debauchery continues...

Breakfast: I was still frazzled and foggy this AM, and had a banana and a hard-boiled egg. Then, after I dropped the kids at the sitter, I stopped for a chocolate cake donut and a blueberry muffin from the grocery store. I also had a Diet Pepsi. This was my first in over a month. It is an addiction I have worked hard to break, and here I was, back at the aspartame.

Lunch: A gardenburger sub from Dave's Cosmic subs with Maui sweet onion potato chips. I chased that with a king size kit kat bar and a king size Reese's sticks.

Snacks: There were some, I can't really remember what they were. Some goldfish crackers, I know.

Dinner: I asked Mr. Kazoo to get me some tofu and vegetable pad thai from a restaurant in Ohio City on his way home. I forgot to specify that the pad thai should not have fish sauce. It had fish sauce. Fish sauce makes me throw up. After a few bites of the pad thai, I threw up. I also threw up the 5 delicious spring rolls that I ate before the pad thai. I couldn't really control it.

Dessert/Snack: King size Reese's big cup. Lightlife jumbo hot dog with hot dog bun, ketchup, and mustard.

Best caloric guess? 2837 calories.

This is what I do.


Tuesday, July 23, 2013

July 23: Daily Recap

Breakfast: Coconut breakfast quinoa topped with strawberries and cherries. Calories: 368.

Lunch: Trader Joe's multigrain blend with vegetables topped with the last of the Chickpeas Romesco. Calories: 392.

Snack: Hard-cooked egg with some grapes. Calories: 132.

Then things got ugly at home, and it was like a switch flipped inside of me, and I ate. And I ate. And I ate. I don't have much memory of what I had.

There was a sandwich on Breadsmith butter-topped white with Morningstar farms veggie bacon (5 slices, I think), mayo, lacey swiss cheese, roasted red pepper, and lettuce.

I ate the rest of the can of potato sticks from yesterday.

Another Lightlife jumbo hot dog on a bun with ketchup and mustard.

Two hot dog buns stuffed with horseradish cheddar cheese.

A bowl of vanilla ice cream topped with Malley's fudge sauce.

No exercise.

Best caloric estimate: 2800

Monday, July 22, 2013

July 22: Daily Recap

Breakfast: Two fried eggs. Croissant. Slice of chocolate mousse cake (office birthday). [Calories: 682]

Lunch: Two Lighlife jumbo hot dogs, two hot dog buns, ketchup and mustard. Potato sticks (1.5 cans), a half of a giant chocolate chip cookie stuffed with vanilla ice cream. [Calories: 1245]

Dinner: Salad with mixed greens, spinach, carrot, cucumber, radish, horseradish cheddar, a Luna burger, rice noodles, sliced almonds, and more of the Oriental salad dressing. [Calories: 746]

Dessert: Vanilla ice cream.

Exercise: None

Total Calories: 2890

Sunday, July 21, 2013

July 21: Daily Recap

Breakfast: Coconut breakfast quinoa topped with cherries, strawberries, and blueberries [333 Calories].

Exercise: 46.6 mile bike ride.

Ride Fuel: 23 miles in I ate a package of gatorade chews, about seven miles later I can one of those awful canned Starbucks double espresso drinks, and when I finish, I had a Luna bar. Fuel is necessary on long rides like this, and these made me feel great on a very fast ride (especially considering my hungover state and the fact that I was very, very short on sleep) [Calories: 420]

Lunch: What was left of the brown rice, 2/3 c. chickpeas romesco, and some more parmesan roasted cauliflower [Calories: 372].

Snack: That ride, exhaustion, and days of bad eating made me crave more badness. I indulged in a chocolate Vitatop muffin and a PBJ on whole wheat bread with a cup of soy milk. [Calories: 541]

Dinner: Wasn't feeling super hot, but went out to Beer Engine in Lakewood for two black bean sliders, two onion rings, and some fries. Calories? No idea...maybe...478? That's why my computer tells me, and I'm blindly going with it.

Dessert: FUCK!!! Vanilla ice cream. Calories: 289.

Calories consumed: 2434
Calories burned: 2540
Net calories: -106 

Saturday, July 20, 2013

July 20: Daily Recap

Breakfast: Coconut breakfast quinoa topped with cherries, strawberries, and blueberries [349 calories].

Exercise: 3.76 mile walk, included two climbs up Stitchcomb hill and one climb up Hogsback. [Burn: 364 calories]

Lunch: 2/3 cup brown rice, 2/3 cup Chickpeas Romesco, approximately 2 cups of cauliflower roasted in a teaspoon of olive oil and topped with a tablespoon of asiago cheese [429 calories].

Dinner: We went to a wedding, and I consumed what I guess to be about 40 ounces of white wine. There was bread and salad, cheesy potatoes and mixed veggies, and a cupcake. I was drunk. [1862 calories].

Post-Wine Binge: A veggie burger with cheese from Burger King with a large order of fries. And after that? A half of a PB&J.

Calories consumed: 3945
Calories burned: 364
Net Calories: 3581

Friday, July 19, 2013

July 19: Daily Recap

Breakfast: I started off right with a bowl of coconut breakfast quinoa topped with strawberries, blueberries, cherries, and unsweetened coconut.

And then...all hell broke loose...

I spent the day with my family. While the kids swam, I snacked on potato skins (the chips), Twizzler bites, Brach's candies, horseradish cheese and crackers, and two small tortillas slathered with Biscoff spread.

For dinner, you ask? We ordered Outback. I had a house salad with tangy tomato dressing, bread and butter, some bloomin' onion, some cheese fries with ranch, and a few bites of spinach and artichoke dip.

For dessert? A bowl of vanilla ice cream and a Heath candy bar.

Take that, clean eating.

Oh...and no exercise.

Approximate calories consumed: 3216.

Thursday, July 18, 2013

July 18: Daily Recap

Breakfast: 2 servings of low fat cottage cheese with strawberries [203 calories].

Exercise: [Yeah. I did that shit today. In this heat. BAM!] Speed workout on the roadie--5 minute warm-up; ten 3-minute intervals [1 minute high intensity/speed; 2 minutes low intensity]. Turned around after the final high intensity interval and rode back home for a total 70-75 minute ride.

Lunch: Salad with mixed greens, cucumber, carrots, adzuki burger, roasted red peppers, havarti with dill, crispy rice noodles, sliced almonds, and the rest of the Applebee's dressing [720 calories]. [I forgot to take a photo, but it looks just like yesterday's, so here ya go.]

Holy SHIT, salad?! That's a lot of damn calories. The dressing was killer, and the mayo in the dressing alone accounted for 180 of those calories. I loved the dressing, though, and want to try and make it work. I'll try making it with fat free Greek yogurt next time, and see if it's still as delicious. Otherwise, I'll have to 86 the havarti and the rice noodles to fit this into my diet on occasion. It really was a welcome break from my usual honey with Dijon mustard, and it made my lunchtime salad something that I actually looked forward to eating.

On the plus side, my calories for breakfast were very low, and I ate that salad after a 15-mile ride with speed intervals. MyNetDiary tells me I burned over 800 calories, which I think is preposterous, but even if I only burned 300-400, I'm still looking good for the rest of the day. Besides, I'm counting calories to get my eating in check, not to obsess about the numbers. Counting made me realize that, on a rest day with a regular breakfast, this salad is a little too high in calories as it is and adjustments will have to be made.

Snack: Pickle [10 calories]

Dinner: 2/3 cup brown rice topped with 2/3 cup leftover chickpeas romesco and one cup of red, seedless grapes [425 Calories]

Total calories consumed: 1357

I am trying to remember that I need to be a little hungry to make the number on the scale go down. I'm not talking about starving myself or anything. I want to keep my body fed and nourished. I want to build muscles and get stronger and faster and heal my old wounds, but I can't feel satisfied all of the time. I've been documenting my food here for over a month now, and I'm a long way from having a healthy, consistent diet. It's something I must continue to work on.

Even now, when the sun is sinking and the day is ending, I could go for some ice cream. Heck, I could even go for some fruit and yogurt (but no vegetables, please, I'm not that hungry). Some Vega chocolate protein powder with soy milk would also be fantastic. Or a frozen waffle (or four). Instead, I will focus my attention elsewhere, and remind myself why I'm doing this.

For me. For Mr. Kazoo. For my kids. To feel comfortable in my skin. To be confident. To be healthy. To be strong. To be fit.